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I told myself I'wont miss you then I just remembered what it felt like beside you.
I miss you.

Exam day 4 (: 2 days to go, then it's PARTYYY timeee! So far only geography, science paper 2 and maths paper 2 fcked my up D': other subject i still think i can pass ;DDD finish exam means form 2 life is end D': i cant accept the truth that I'm changing class and i'm living my 2gigih classmate, everyone in 2gigih are just effing awesome. No jokes. I'll miss them like shyt. Hope god put all of us same class again next year (: wootz

Went Prefection to tuition for Science and Maths. It was fun,though. Faye kimm, faster come lahhh! (:

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Went Library yesterday with Faye Kimm and Darren (: finally i studied about an hour. Finally, if not i'm not even touching my books weih. exam, here i come. I'm gonna fck you up (: Sejarah and BM tomorrow, i read for BM only. i totally dont give a damn about sejarah. I HATE MALAYSIA HISTORY -___- i rather read other countries's history then Malaysia's! No jokes!

Goo luck everyone.
we shall pass our exam (:
and PARTY

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" I'm scared of seeing you with someone else. "

Everytime i saw you, i really wanted to run up to you and hug you. A really, really long one )': you dont know how much i love you, Do you? I really wish i could talk back to you like we used to. Can we pretend, for just one second, that thing were back to the way they are. I still love you alot and i really hope you would come back to me (: That's my only hope. I'm miss you with all the pieces.


Exam is within 3 days, and guess what, i havent start studying yet, no even a page. Seriously, i dont have the mood still ): FML! Going Library tomorrow, seriously i really need to study, if not dead meat for sureee. I'm worried bout everything now days. my life is stormy now, but i will see the rainbow someday. this what yii phing told me, thank you my good friend (:

Dear God, i wish me and my friends could pass our test. and we just wanted to be together in the same class in the year 2011. PLEASE :/ 2Gigih really gave alot of warm-ness and happiness this year, thanks for everything. I love you guys forever lah. & LOVE YOU TOO, GOD ;D
2 gigih rule my world, without you guys, i dont think i will be coming to school everyday, even though i was sick (:
Except then 2gigih, my other awesome friends . i LOVE you all too lah, dont get jealous (: ahahha Perasan mee (: aint that awesomee?! Just being meee (: is a good thing, tho.


If i died today, would there be anything you wish you had said to me?
I love you forever, and i really do mean it. Imy )':

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"Hi, I'am a Boy.
I'm going to love you,
make you fall for me and
then break up with you &
hurt your feelings."


is that real?! Please someone prove it's wronggg!

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This really hurts )’:

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Hello world (: sorry for the late update. I was not in the mood )': Really thanks everyone who called me to be strong and called me to get over it. I really appreciated, but still i'm totally over yet. Sorry )': although I'm not okay, but i'll be fine (: no worries. Yii Phing's facebook status, ' Love doesn't walk away, people do.' It's like so true.

Rewatched Kelly Clarckson, Because of you. The MV was so touching and i cried, tho. HEH ;D the song because of you and Behind these Hazel Eyes totally describe me right now. I hate this feeling so much )': Although that really hurts, but at least i take chance (: thinking positive. Got time go watch those amazing MV (:

At last, thanks to all my awesomeee friends who cheered me up and called me to be strong. thankyou Min Jui, Faye Kimm, Darren Ong, Crystal Yeoh, Fei Shyuan, Ming Xuan, Vivian Onn, Kit Man, Sze Yii, Yii Phing, Adrian Tang, Hong Ann & alot more. Really thankyouuuu (: Sorry if i left your name (:
Min Jui, thanks for your awesome text. I saved down, that text was so meaningful. ;DDD

It’s hard to let go of a person you’ve been holding onto for so long. It hurts cause you don’t know what to do, you hate the tears. But sometimes you gotta know what’s better for the both of you.

I miss having you to talk to.

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I still need you
I still care about you
Though everything's been said and gone
I still feel you
Like I'm right beside you
But Still no word from you

I keep telling myself that I'm over you and that I'm ready to face you anytime. I keep on telling myself that I'm not in love with you anymore, that I don't really like you. I keep on telling myself that I don't deserve you, that there's someone better. I keep on telling myself that I shall let go of you. Yet, all these things are part of an everyday cycle that unfortunately ends up with being in love with you all over again.

This sucks, until now, i was still hoping that my phone would rang & it was from you. I pray and make a wish everyday, and i was hoping we could go back to the time that you still love me. Maybe i shouldnt expect so much, but I really need something to believe in. I still believe that you would text me and come back to me. But if you really wanna let go, could you hug me tightly before you leave?! that's the only thing i would be hopping for so far, but still, i wish you would come back to me. I'm learning how to fake smile, but i wanna be truely happy, but i can't. I need help, I don't wanna stay at home and face those thing that makes me cry. I was crying for 3 days already, no jokes )':
"There were things I wanted to tell you. But I knew they would hurt you, so I buried them, and them hurt me."

Trust me, I know how it feels. I know exactly how it feels to cry in the shower so no one can hear you. I know what it’s like to wait for everyone to be asleep so you can just fall apart, for everything to hurt so bad you’re ready to let it all end. Trust me. I know exactly how it feels.

Does it really have to be this way?

No matter what,
I will be waiting for you.
I love you,
& I'm not lying.

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The girl who seemed unbreakable, broke.
The girl who always laughed, cried.
The girl that never stopped trying, finally gave up.
She dropped her fake smile as a tear rolled down her cheek,
and she whispered to herself,
'I can't do this anymore'

I'm so emo these day, seriously my heart is dying soon. Some of you maybe knows why, but i cant control myself from posting emo stuff all around. How i wish i can throw away my phone, i really wish my phone would vibrate and the text is from you, but my heart whispered all the time, ' he's not gonna text you anymore, give up girl.' and slowly my tears rolled down. Waiting for you is like waiting for you in this drought, useless and disappointing. Total suffer )': I really don't want to stay at home anymore and faced those stuff. Trying to move on, but i need some time. but still, i promise myself i wont do stupid things, no worries. Thank god i'm going out on Monday and tuesday. Today's 10/10/10, be happy everyone. I'm thinking positive, Phewww (: It's not the end of the world, Cheryl. Your friends are still here for you (: but still, i hope you would come back to me.

Cant wait for 10:10pm, i'm gonna make a wish.

Thanks Min Jui, Faye Kimm, Ming Xuan, Darren for comforting me.
Although you guys thinks it's nothing much, but that really mean alot to me.
THANK YOU AWESOME PEOPLE (:

P.S. after typing everything out, i felt alot better (: thanks for reading too. i love you guys.

I still love you,
I'm always here for you.

Imissyou

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Forever is Never )’:

I hate you for letting me go with that stupid reason but I can't bring myself to hate you because I really, really do love you. I’ll be waiting for you to come back to me even though you broke my heart. I can't pretend and I can't fake a smile every time I see you or every time we meet. It’s really are hard to let you go. Please, please. Come back to me.

I still need you.

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Fear no bitch (:

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I fucking love you guys <3