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150.

I still need you
I still care about you
Though everything's been said and gone
I still feel you
Like I'm right beside you
But Still no word from you

I keep telling myself that I'm over you and that I'm ready to face you anytime. I keep on telling myself that I'm not in love with you anymore, that I don't really like you. I keep on telling myself that I don't deserve you, that there's someone better. I keep on telling myself that I shall let go of you. Yet, all these things are part of an everyday cycle that unfortunately ends up with being in love with you all over again.

This sucks, until now, i was still hoping that my phone would rang & it was from you. I pray and make a wish everyday, and i was hoping we could go back to the time that you still love me. Maybe i shouldnt expect so much, but I really need something to believe in. I still believe that you would text me and come back to me. But if you really wanna let go, could you hug me tightly before you leave?! that's the only thing i would be hopping for so far, but still, i wish you would come back to me. I'm learning how to fake smile, but i wanna be truely happy, but i can't. I need help, I don't wanna stay at home and face those thing that makes me cry. I was crying for 3 days already, no jokes )':
"There were things I wanted to tell you. But I knew they would hurt you, so I buried them, and them hurt me."

Trust me, I know how it feels. I know exactly how it feels to cry in the shower so no one can hear you. I know what it’s like to wait for everyone to be asleep so you can just fall apart, for everything to hurt so bad you’re ready to let it all end. Trust me. I know exactly how it feels.

Does it really have to be this way?

No matter what,
I will be waiting for you.
I love you,
& I'm not lying.

149.

The girl who seemed unbreakable, broke.
The girl who always laughed, cried.
The girl that never stopped trying, finally gave up.
She dropped her fake smile as a tear rolled down her cheek,
and she whispered to herself,
'I can't do this anymore'

I'm so emo these day, seriously my heart is dying soon. Some of you maybe knows why, but i cant control myself from posting emo stuff all around. How i wish i can throw away my phone, i really wish my phone would vibrate and the text is from you, but my heart whispered all the time, ' he's not gonna text you anymore, give up girl.' and slowly my tears rolled down. Waiting for you is like waiting for you in this drought, useless and disappointing. Total suffer )': I really don't want to stay at home anymore and faced those stuff. Trying to move on, but i need some time. but still, i promise myself i wont do stupid things, no worries. Thank god i'm going out on Monday and tuesday. Today's 10/10/10, be happy everyone. I'm thinking positive, Phewww (: It's not the end of the world, Cheryl. Your friends are still here for you (: but still, i hope you would come back to me.

Cant wait for 10:10pm, i'm gonna make a wish.

Thanks Min Jui, Faye Kimm, Ming Xuan, Darren for comforting me.
Although you guys thinks it's nothing much, but that really mean alot to me.
THANK YOU AWESOME PEOPLE (:

P.S. after typing everything out, i felt alot better (: thanks for reading too. i love you guys.

I still love you,
I'm always here for you.

Imissyou

148.

Forever is Never )’:

I hate you for letting me go with that stupid reason but I can't bring myself to hate you because I really, really do love you. I’ll be waiting for you to come back to me even though you broke my heart. I can't pretend and I can't fake a smile every time I see you or every time we meet. It’s really are hard to let you go. Please, please. Come back to me.

I still need you.

147.

146.

Fear no bitch (:

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I fucking love you guys <3